Its funny how when we were younger we used to listen to these heartbreak songs and love them off but not actually understanding what it feels like to be in that situation. Its like when I first heard this song it didn’t mean much to me but now when I listen to it its like I can relate. The thing is when you grow up and listen to these type of songs and realise that the person was singing your lyrics. With me I TOTALLY get it, I can understand every little word.
Good morninggg everyone how are you all doing today? I’m good. Did you know that college finishes on Thursday for me so it means it’s the holidays nearly.
2 days down, 2 days left.
Heyy.
What is on my mind today? I have no idea really. My mind is just everywhere. I saw one of my bestfriends today which was really good. I haven’t seen her much since I started college. I’m glad we’re growing close again. So we went for abit of window shopping down Oxford street and I visited Selfridges and I decided on new lipsticks. It’s nice to not have to worry about a heavy heart. I feel good. I even ate two double cheese burgers and fries. Yeah heart attack waiting to happen but oh well. What else? Umm.. I’m not doing much with my life ATM. Mind you I have a little something in mind for someone but that’s not something I should think about. Some male friends are best kept as friends. Why complicate it with more irrelevant things. I’ve started my revision for my resits in January and come up with what unis I wanna go to. It’s all taking off. What an amazing journey it is aswell :)
My Bridget Jones Day.
Well today has certainly been a day to write about. Do you ever get one of them days where you feel like the whole universe is against you? Yes well today was one of them days. Where do I start? First I wake up after drifting in and out of sleep. It happened to be some thirsty night for me. I kept waking up wanting a drink but yeah whatever. I wake up too early so I’m stuck thinking oh crap what will I do. I’m obviously too lazy to get breakfast so I just lay in bed. Yeah I said. I stayed in bed cos I couldn’t be bothered to get up to eat even though I was hungry. I don’t understand why my body and mind don’t just cooperate. Anyways… so I get up, wash, get ready the usual morning routine and I leave for college on time. For once I actually leave early. So I’m walking casjj like normal then I get to the corner where I turn on to Lea Bridge and does my bag not decide to break? Yes it’s breaks. All my things dropping on the floor and all of I sudden it’s like one of them girls in a movie. So I sit there for ages trying to fix my bag and it’s just not happening. Bear in mind I’m already slow so it takes me longer than a normal person to figure things out. These times there are loads of 56’s driving past packed out with people. All these people probably saw my moment of stupidness and then once I get it fixed I decide okay let’s go. I stand at the bus stop hoping another bus will come but it doesn’t so I just walk it to college (I live local). And I’m LATE. Like I wasn’t awake and ready early. *sigh* life. Well fastfoward day goes on and it’s the end. I’m just looking forward to going home. So I’m walking walking walking and who do I bump into? An ex and his girlfriend. If you’ve read this blog before you should know my issues. Anyways I act like some retard and cross the road, say hello in some high pitched voice then go down another road cause uno I’m meant to be meeting someone down this road I never take and do I not trip over and nearly drop into dog poop. I was sooo flustered. It was just one of them moments where I was ready to go throw myself under a w15 or w16 for that matter. (Any little bus really) That’s so I don’t actually die but wow. Eurgh what a day. I’m just glad it’s over. I would apologise for this rant but I’m not gonna bother because this is why I have this blog. To express emotions :D
Peek-a-boo
Hi everybody. How have you all been? Just checking in with ya all. I wanna get to know more of you all. It’s nice knowing people from everywhere. But yeah. How have I been? I’ve been really really disgustingly I’ll lately. It’s made me do weak. I hate being ill cause I never get ill but other than that I’ve been good lately. Mentally stable. I’ve been told that my page is hella depressing and I understand where you get that from its just I never really get a chance to post on here when I’m having lots of fun with life so I’m going to try post more often (in respects to being happy) so that will change hopefully. I’m enjoying college. Well not enjoying; Leyton Sixth Form is such a crappy college (socially). Well I’m Surviving it. In hindsight I now know that I should have chosen a different one. But this journey is coming to an end soon so I’m pushing myself to enjoy whatever is left of it. I’m applying to university (college as you Americans know it) now and it’s just quite unreal how quickly these past few years have gone. I’m actually really excited to go to uni but I’m so torn about what to study. I’m just into so many different things and the thing that is dominating my thoughts is what future I’m going into. To be honest the main thing on my mind is how much money will it lead me into. This might sound very.. I don’t even know what the word for it is but basically money is my motivation. I’m not disrespecting the way I was bought up or whatever but I just want to live a comfortable life when I’m older and be able to buy whatever I like cause I didn’t have that opportunity in my childhood. So it’s hard. I’m having to come to chose between a career I would love and the salary a career would give me. I don’t know. Decisions decisions decisions. I’m going to go abit incognito on here tho over the next few weeks because I have exams coming up and I’m going to be extra busy revising. But if you have any questions or any recommendations on a review/new post that I can do just inbox me if it’s possible to do that on here. Follow me on twitter. My life has actually been boring lately so I won’t have anything interesting to update you on. And I have finally read the twilight books. I’m so happy I waited til after the movies because I would have hated the films. I have always been a bookworm.
When I was on work experience one of my co-workers used to call me princess Oreo cause I loved them so much. He even promised to buy me an Oreo milkshake which he never got round to -______- but still.. Good times :)
This blog was never made to please people or gain loads of followers. I just wanted to express myself because I don’t get that chance when I need to. If there’s an issue you can just unfollow me. I’m not trying to please people.
When I’m posting on tumblr I realised that it’s always when I’m unhappy. I never have time to post when I’m having fun on here.
:)
